I took three modules for the first semester and my in class tests results were really good. Averaged at 70% enough to me a distinction woohoo! Well all except for Statistics *bleargh* and I was over the moon. I was super confident that I could maintain the scores right up to end semester results but boy was I wrong. The final result slip for Crisis Management was emailed in yesterday and I scored only a credit (60-69%) *ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!* my heart crashed and I wondered what went wrong. Now awaiting for HDPP and Statistics to show how steep the down curve was.
Even F was disappointed and warned me not to slack. I felt angry and then sad and now just resigned to the fact that I need to buckle up and work harder for the long haul. The euphoria of the short holiday I took to Boracay, Phillipines quickly dissipating *le sigh* just like how quick the sun rose over crystal cove and into the skies.
I am mulling over details of the past 3 months now and the urge to break things is very strong now *ehe ehe ehe*. Well, one can't cry over spilled milk so I am redirecting the energy to pick up the slack and here I am goblogging my despair. Happy thoughts! I need happy happy thoughts!
Kitty happy thoughts! and......
ZEN.
*breatheeeeeeeIN...BREATHEEEEEEEout*
This semester another 3 modules set to go and first class after term break yesterday was good. I saw familiar faces and already stress buttons were pushed when we all started to compare results :p As expected, our assignment questions were set out and briefed to the hyperventilating students hehe. The plan is the same, set out early and have to find the discipline to keep to schedule. I just can't find any excuses for the dip but intuitively I know I have been just a tad too cocky with my flexibility and gave in to the rest of my wants.
It has been endless youtube videos, no excercise and nope! housework is not exercise hor! and damn facebook! *muahahahah* also the fact that I am financially dependent on F has been quite challenging to my free spirit ways. So when *che. nickocheeko* my ex boss called me to ask if I want to come back with a higher pay package, I found myself really tempted to say YES! I will be getting a straight up promotion and almost double my last drawn salary but of course I know the expectations then will be shooting through the roof.
Apparently, they finally broke the camel's back and *mr. saifool* quit leaving the manager's position open for interpretation haha! I thought it will be such sweet revenge to come back and take over just like that but hell no! Who wants the abuse? Obviously the long hours will eat into study time and instead of averaging at 60% I might just have to resit for all the modules again gah! Horror of horrors man!
so okay lor....
There is only one way to go that is ----- FORWARD smiling :)
Lessons learnt and all the butthurt with it.
Stay sane,
amie
