that thing you do...

"People play games as a substitute for real intimacy, an every game, however unpleasent, has a particular payoff for one or both players." Games People Play (1964) Eric Berne.

i'll let you think you win because i know you play only to win. and sometimes it is just better that way because i know too much cortisol could lead to cancer build up. this tactic is called strategic avoidance. a walkover doesn't mean i lose, it just means i am more aware of my strengths and weaknesses and i refuse to be a victim of something much more bigger that your ego. mine is much bigger and if that makes me a selfish bastard than i am.

proud to be a selfish bastard.

keep sane with much love always,

jahatamyemeelea

on da color yellow...

yellow submarine..


yellow the song


yellow raincoat..


yellow people


yellow duckie...


yellow sun


yellow yellow diry fellow...


40,000 yellow t-shirts



...........*biteslips*

funny how a single color can eclipse a myriad of other beautiful colors of the rainbow. i think i'll add a huge pack of pencil colors, paint and pens to my shopping list and brighten the other beautiful colors in my life.

stay sane,

jahatamyemeelea