a blast!

gua: apek ah..sikalang pukol belaper?

apek: ah sikalang, eight and seben. *penuh confident*

gua: ehk??? eight and seben itu pukol belapa?!

apek: ooohhh....eight and seben minutes *muka atak cenyum*

a nice blast to the past with the kids. i think this is a nice shot with the apek ice cream who was nice enough to pose for a picture with the three terrors. i mean the guy is a blarrdy classic man! :D

to my question, "maybe is not a definite yes or a no..then what the fish ijit?"....i have to thank che im ;) for fitting and APT answer. of course he was the only one who bothers to take me seriously *sometimes* and the answer is; "maybe is you having to settle for less then expected when yes.... and not compromising your expectation when no...." yesh, it is a bit of a tongue twister but thanks again my man :) made my night, can't say about tommorow.

stay sane,
amyemeelea

saved!!

my hair was like falling out in clumps till sis saved me with an online database address to go dig for my research stuff for school *yeay!!* then my brain kinda went to blue screen hehe :P

P-R-O-C-A-S-T-I-N-A-T-I-O-N

is a bad bad BAD word :D

stay sane and super ons!!!
amyemeelea needs energizer batts to be shoved up my arse *hic*

crazy..

i got back at 6pm and left the rest of the guys to finish up whatever was needed at the office. i had an important errand to run, a message to send and i just don't know what to expect. nevertheless, i just did what my heart told me to do and time!....got back close to 9pm. one of the girls is coming in morning tomorrow and i'm stuck with the 11 am shift. i actually have class but she needed the morning shift more than i do so i lied and said it's okay to change :) i hope things work out for ms villy kong hehe...

"a fleeting smile disarmed me and i turned my eyes away so as not to fall further down its abyss of soulful yearning. the steps i took burnt marks into the concrete floor as i try with all my might to walk away. within minutes my heart stop beating and with just a hello you started it alive with desperate longing; as i try to mask my hidden sorrow. still it was that fleeting smile i will choose to remember the rest let mere presence swallow...."

OOppps...terbabas gua!! it's desperate housewives nite and i keep clenching and grinding my teeth. maybe i'd take the time to look for that biting cat again and give it a tight smack for biting me last night hehehe...darn this nagging feelings of unease!!!

stay sane,
amyemeelea tak centre skit nari..*skitjermaybecosi'mHUNGRYah!*

a moment...

Blackrose

Penantian

Dikamar ku menyepi
Hanya lilin menerangi
Beginikah seksanya
Hidup dalam penantian
Ditabir tirai malam
Ada insan kesepian, keseorangan...

Dan setiap detik yang ku lalui
Seluruh malam ku membisu
Tetap setia menantimu
Bayanganmu entah di mana

Mengapa harus kita ditemukan
Di saat jiwaku keresahan
Apakah aku satu persinggahan
Mengubat rindu... oh...

Kau dahagakan...
Ku kehausan...
Setitis rasa
Pada bayangan yang tak pasti... oh...

Kau nyalakan perasaan
Mengukir kemesraan
Mungkinkah ada sinar
Bersama impianku

Dah telah ku duga
Suasana keindahan seketika
Aku tetap menanti mu

Kau dahagakan...
Ku kehausan...
Setitik rasa... oh...
Aku tenggelam...
Kehampaan...
Keseorangan...

Mana sinaran ?...
Terangilah hidupku
Tak sanggup lagi... aku... sepi...

before anybody calls me a minah jiwangs *hehe* this song is specially dedicated to my fave bud che jihn :) who is going coming back to singy for just awhile and be a totally changed man!!!! for some who know... this song was banned a while back because it was said that the song was about the person pining for drugs..i went like wahhhh????! but yes naybe it has i-am-having-craves-for-dotdotdot but so what?!! it's a nice song and i guy sang it so beautifully hauntingly rockish mentel. so they did the ineveitable which was to change the liriks of the song. it sounded awful of course! and me being not so musically inclined except for live music didn't get to hear the original song for years!! i lost my tape and then tape went out of fashion and of course my walkamn from school was lost? damaged? i think it was lost :P THEN!!!! when jihn was in singy; while in the car, the radio played the song and hell yeah! we both burst out in song ehehehe it was a pure moment and please send my bestest regards to you know who ;) see you soon on the fateful day! tak tak...gua janji tak bukak silat hehe...won't want you guys to fall flat on your face laughing ;P

so i updated my bro and sis in law on my week and had a few laughs. have a few invitations next week cos the mosaic festival is on right now. maybe hop into my bud's new *okaynotsonew* swanky car for a spin and catch up. and i promised che tom to lepak at his cafe which he's turning into a cinema! it's called kaki 5 over at jalan sultan, pretty funky if you like a whiff of urba-serba-funky-new-malay-underground-culture-in-singy *muehehehehe* type of cafe cum gallery now a cinema! must bring the gals out to paint the town red and loads of spring cleaning to be done in room! check out chinois with poww and harry soon. run my blaaardy errands and must must see the 3 terros soon and catch up wih my elder bro in tampines.....and of course...complete my assignment ;)*phew*

ok go!

stay sane,
amyemeelea just had kofi :D

frager?!!!!

i had a great night and thanks to prince harry and ms powwsters *peloktakmolepas* an intresting day ended intrestingly well. a breath of fresh air always does one good and i have very good friends around me ;) *mushymushy* out on a saturday night wearing my fave leather jaket hehe and just about talked about everything. i just hope poww and harry didn't go deaf just sitting with me cos i can be very loud :P

i learnt some new german words and what stuck most was the word 'fra-ger' meaning 'question' in german and it was funny how we all conversed in a smattering of germang haha!! both of em are the funkiest couple and tonight all the more i wished them both the very best in life. you can't know how tonight was important to me :) i was carrying aheavy load today but they took the time to include me and un-loaded my migraine away *yeay!*

i missed my bus! cos i waited on the wrong side of the road *duh* i took the bus to save a bit ah...nasib baik ada this weekend nightrider bus thingy kalau tidak gua starded siak! and dozed off in bus till i reached home. walked a bit and decided to log on and blog a bit to chip of this euphoria so that i can go to sleep. think a bit about the good news *andbad!!* we shared and smile at the memories of a night well spent shared by my fave *verysane* couple of the moment *yesiamgushing*

soooooo.....here's to both of you ;) for making me feel 'alive'....

"the porter runs to the heavy load and takes it from others,
knowing burdens are the foundations of ease
and bitter things the forerunners of pleasure.
See the porters struggle over the load!
It's the way of those who see the truth of things."
- Rumi, Mathnawi, II 1834-36

stay sane and always happy,
amyemeelea

musings..

andaian....

"keikhlasan ku disoal, apabila dituntut
erti keikhlasan itu tidak harus dipersoalkan.
kemahuan ku ditolak, atas dasar aku tidak mengerti.
tiap tomahan dan cemuhan kusama ertikan dengan luahan cinta.
pergertian saksama yang diburu digelapkan oleh kecelaru pemikiran.
perbezaan zahir dan kelemahan batin menjadi batu penghalang.
perjalanan ku terhenti....
tersentak lamunan cinta asyik syahdu romantis.
diriku keliru dan jasad ku lengguh ditimpa badai tak sudah.
namun perjalanan menuju ke SATU tidak akan ku hentikan.
andaian kekasih sejati kujadikan senjata srikandi.
yang menjadikan cita-cita yang diburu bukan setakat impian tapi
perjuangan yang suci
lagi kudus....."

the kids in a controlled enviroment of course! if not i shudder to think what could have happened to the walls, the floor and to everything :P they have this habit *whichicultivatedahems* of drawing on the walls except for terror number 3 cos she's too young to remember but we used to have a special wall to draw on! they *andme* are allowed to draw, color and scribble and do anything to that wall and i'd just keep it that way. it is suppose to deter them *andmehehe* to draw on any other walls and things in the rest of the house!

well.....we'll have another wall soon :) and in the meantime, paper would do. any kind of paper of course! :D i know it must sound terrible to number them in such a way but i have to tell you that it stopped them from fighting over the phone and almost *ALMOST* just about everything else. i used to have this problem of them fighting over the phone when i call but the numbering system worked! now they take turns according to the 'number system' and i get to talk to ALL three of them *yeay!!!clapshands* in order plak tue :P but i always remind them that i love all the same and not more or less. only yes...the love just grows as love does grow over time...

stay sane,
amyemeelea