lepak christmas.

office closed at 12 noon today and i got an unexpected ride home. which was a nice surprise. i called ms. dod and told her to drive by with my passport enroute to johor before collapsing on my bed. i called ms. nan and then told her i'd drop by to sleepover after she's done with dinner. finally....despite being quite hungry i drifted off for a qucik snooze.

that was at about 1 pm and i woke up at 430pm startled. yeaps..the phone went off a few times and i saw a very angry sms from ms. nan *gulps* the messenger was blinking furiusly and ms. dod hung up on me *majorGULPS* no doubt about it, i just managed to again repeat my inability to stay awake when i need to most. fear not, it only happens when i am in my OWN bed that is. like the malays say, "tido mati' literally meaning sleeping like the dead :p

that's why i have to sleepover at ms. nan's place tonight. to make sure i don't flub the gang's plans this weekend. we are driving up to pulai springs for a one-nighter tomorrow! this is for a well deserved break after last weekend's sucessful event. usually it'd be food galore, hearty laughs and obviously more shopping. we'd dress up for canwhoring sessions punctuated my many inside jokes before retiring to a fantastic dinner. afterwich we'd find stuff to amuse ourselves around the hotel and end the night feeling totally spent in the camaderie.

the usual pack up to check out madness will follow after our morning swim session at the pool. i hope this time we get the 3 room suite by the pool so that i don't have to hang out at the cold cold balcony for smokes *heheh* for shopping follws and then its back to home sweet home to reminiece another fantastic weeeknd with the gang. usually, i'd need another day to recuperate from the side splitting laughs we all throw in spontaneously.

so thank god for the extended weekend. office will be closed for boxing day this monday and then it's futsal training at 8pm. the team is going to play in the next FAS Women's League and recutiment is picking up. my hope is for the team to progress even further and i am sure we can do this! wshing for no crcket score finishes :p

will visit the terrors over the weekend although terror 1 who caught me in facebook the other day told me that they'd be away. yes, the terrors have to resort to using facebook to track down thier mum *prfft* terror 2 is recuperating from his circumsision *yeay!* and glad to rport he did us proud by *itrust* to screaming fits. terror 1 said he cried but am very proud of him for sticking it through bravely. not a peep from terror 3 but i saw her latest cute picture posted at her sister's facebook album so i know she's doing fine.

i haven't told bobi of my plans to move out. fear of being alone again gives me anxiety fits. biks calms me down and said she'd help clean and even going further by agreeing to sleepover! yeah, i'm such a scared cat sometimes hehe..well, 2010 will be awesome! the terrors are excited and i'm about to drive myself crazy poring over details. when i know, trust only can fly off from a solid foundation built from faith. for all the risks i am about to take weeks ahead; definately many of them the hardest must be tackling another breath of freedom. may i have the dsicipline to hold out and fight of loneliness with creative productively ehk?

starting with writting regularly. err....yes....the papers for school i mean :p

stay sane,
j.amyemeelea

ps: will 'edit' later...heh

emoleyyyyy!

ms. leesama won the tickets to beethoven at the esplanade and i went with biks. ms. leesama knew i had the hots for the classics (still very much a newbie) so she gave the tickets to me as PREZZIE! *woots!* I asked biks to accompany me, so that day she rushed all way from nus and made it right after the first intermission. the concert started at 730pm and on the way to the esplanade i raced down to raffles city to grab emoley! i got the monthly notebook 2010, the softcover in pocketsize and to complement it i chose the cahiers in red! BUT..upon closer inspection while waiting for biks that day, i grabbed instead the volants in 2 shades of red instead. still! welcome emoley 2010! may my life in 2010 be viva le 'method in madness'!!!

i am sooOooo set on 2010 *gulps* my intent on renting the new bacherlorette pad is firm! but i haven't mentioned anything to boshikino yet. i've been quite busy with the cellaraid gang with our weekly classes cum meetings (to gossip muahaha). che. diambunuh has proved to be more toxic than anything else so had to cut him off. its so obvious that i can't be friends with him but yet i tried in the name of 'compassion'. OTEY! i had HOPE that we could 're-negotiate' our relationship lar. UGH~! major FAIL so told him nicely via sms to fuck off. i think i can understand why anyone (BUT ME) will accept to be matchmade by parents. espescially for che. diambunuh as he's 'golden child' of the family. God forbid he marries someone LIKE MOI~! and for ms. shudoink? i actually envy her for having her parents roll out and approve her date lists. *uwa! i mish muh mom n pops* very the princess right? if it doesn't work out or anything then can shift a bit of the un-ease to others hehe..but as said...good luck to both, i wish you both ALL that you each deserve *jeng jeng jeng* i tried to call che.diambunuh to tell him in person but he was probably busy telling his girlfriend more lies :p so sms press 'SEND'. a wee bit regret here is the price i had to pay for taking so LONG to make that decision, i feel like i have lost my pilot! and then a few more others (whom were so charming actually) to my inabiltiy to open my self to another. i take being serially monogamous very very seriously. no point i believe to give another false hope and put up with pretenses right? which is totally different and subjectively up for debate if you're a 'player' and your obejctive is to sow your wild seeds with abandon. or as the opposite sex, your point in going through men like underwaer is to rake up sexperiences? :p

well, lesson learnt here for myself: say no to drugs! *lololol* and i am NOT, will NEVER WANT be another JUSTINATANTYSITITAUPONGSHUHAILA. Not now not future NOT ever. HOW the hell i believed that i could have been all of them for you is very humbling for me as a person. the realisation hit me once again (and this time VERY hard *adus*) and the lesson i had to learn ALL over again IS "it is better to hated for who you are, than to be loved for someone you are not".

after my time with che. green-eyed-monster I SHOULD HAVE LEARNT my lesson siak..otey lar...anyway tuition with you wasn't all that bad ;) dehemit you che.diambunuh!!! i now feel i should really thank you instead? but! maybe the birthday gift i got you will suffice as thank you? hope lies yonder i guess as all is not lost. last i checked, i am still breathing. claws still intact and venom still potent. not to forget, meditations and practice on streghtening my kundalini has shown much much progress! >) now i need to work on reghular 'tarik tikar' sessions *amin*

ORH! i must mention my afternoon date yesterday! the movie STORM II had me drooling for aaron kwok ah *slurpsss* the whole movie was very 300 but i enjoyed it noetheless. too bad i can't say much about my date *jelings* sib baik ehk gua lagi feeling generous ah but next time lu suruh gua suap lu lagik, jgn marah kalau termasok IDONG *cispai* 2nd date da mintak2 suap-menyuap ehk! padan muka kena BALEK then mandi air sejok! >p

stay sane,
j.amyemeelea

Playing the field..

When your WIFE tells you in a tone that is DEVOID of ALL emotion this:-

Wifey : IF/WHEN you do have extra marital relations with other WOMEN just bear in mind that all is considered ‘natural’ till the point of penetration.
Hubs: you mean you don’t mind? Why no fucking?
Wifey: *smiles and giggles* just think about the baby born out of wedlock (IF)
Hubs : *blinks*

so what the hell do I have to say? When you ALREADY believe that:-

1) Your wife is the MOST understanding and forgiving person in the whole wide world and YOU CAN confirm that she’d thereafter be rewarded with PARADISE for her above statement.

Because OBVIOUSLY to you she:-

a) Understands and accepts that MEN are defenseless against the lure of infidelity (known and otherwise)
b) Will forgive you for any indiscretions made whether directed or not to her status and responsibilities of WIFE (known and otherwise)
c) Will still love and respect you as her soul mate and father to your children regardless of your infidelities (known or otherwise).

Resulting in your attitude: -

“Can I lick your pussy but no fucking please? My wife says its all okay but I must think of the babies born out of wedlock.”

*clapclapclap* in other words..Congratulations MATE!

I couldn’t agree more…your wife INDEED deserves my salutes for being the most open minded and liberated, enlightened soul evar! I am sure ALL the husbands in the world pray (all the time and HARD) for someone EXACTLY with her attitude and beliefs about ‘extra marital relationships’. Did you check if she recently joined ‘women for polygamy’ in malaysia! :p

*bwaahahahahahaha*

ehk!!!!!!!! Do you still want to know my thoughts and opinions in THIS REGARD? >)

Stay sane,
j.amyemeelea

ps: kimsalam bini lu ehk? Lu cakap JAHAT kimsalam~

My serendipity…

–noun

1.an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.

2.good fortune; luck: the serendipity of getting rid of the two timing, faithless and biggest bastard is the best thing that she could hope for.

is knowing that…

YOU CHEAT


OPENLY.

So if your question is still why? Then please take note:-

OFFICIALLY…..for the records.........and ask me again i'd say it to your fucking face

You’re right…and I couldn’t have agreed with you more on this….

You do NOT deserve ME AT ALL.

SHE DOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So stay the fuck away from me you creep!

Or else *winksbows*

j.amyemeelea

"How hard it is, sometimes, to trust the evidence of one's senses! How reluctantly the mind consents to reality." - Norman Douglas

*shakeshead*