i'm backkkk!!!!!

I just deleted a long long long entry rambling and grumbling when I stopped and deleted everything. Simple with just a click and then its all gone! Wouldn’t I be great to erase things just as easy as that :D

I am not going to edit this entry at all just to see if I could spot some Freudian slips of mine along the way hehe and try not to censor myself along the way. I just spotted one above and I’m going to let it be.

So what did I do these past few weeks? I managed to finish one assignement on time and the other *tootteetteettoot* along athe way. I I emant that. I just don’t know what happened to the other one. Everyone who cared asked if I handed in my assignments and I said yes to all :P I attended the hotel’s dinner and dance as a bear last Thursday and won a huge ang pow. Won’t say how much it was but have already spent it all on verybody else except myself ;) I have finally decided that it’s okay for me to look for another job if I don’t find the current one suitable for me *thankyoupoww* and I am convinced now that my sympathies for the opposition party in Singapore will only have me looked upon as just another rebel without a cause *yeah!!!rockon!* again I learnt to opposites do attract but all for the wrong reasons and that I’d always be a stubborn mule when I can’t bring myself to agree with another’s point of view or sets of beliefs.

I still belive in the freedom of the press and that it should be upheld at all costs. Because to me freedom of press means living without fear and when one lives without fear only then can one be faced with situations and challenges to change oneself from within. I’m not saying we all should not live in fear totally but isn’t fear the very thing that stops us from moving forward and experiencing the good the bad the ugly? Should life just be happy, peaceful and in harmony? Was it meant to be without strife and adversity? I think there’s a lot more issues at hand that needs to be tackled,.immediate issues very close at home, at heart that needs our attention. Bigger pictures gives us the wide screen view of things but if you look closely, and that’s how you should look…..very closely and that is when you can see what needs to be done and how it needs to be done. No point looking at the bigger picture and missing the finer things in between or one can’t be anal retentive and micro manage everything. I just think that I should conventrate on what I do best nad try to do other aspirational, inspirational things at least once. Who knows you might like it and decide to pursue and keep it as a constant.

Who knows what is good or bad for us anymore. For some freedom means one but to another a totally different thing altogether. The most most important is not to,lose its ‘essence’ and efforts must be made to keep it pure. Whether its freedom of the press or maybe it was just seeking out the truth. Fair is fair and I think everyone should take it as their own responsibility to practice what they preach and earn their keep. Its just very sad that some had to die and others ostracised. But fear not……..evil begets evil and good will triumph. Law of the universe transcends mere idolatry laws of men and I have faith that nothing that has transpired has gone to waste.

Some may fear lipas and some may fear cicaks but I fear I’d fail to hear the alarm go off tomorrow if I don’t get some shuteye. Some fears are irrational and many totally makes sense!!! But just how many will overcome and prevail AT least the selfless ones :)

stay sane and not sleepy :P
amyemelea