post v day...

down with fever and on medical leave from yesterday. i'm due to work in an hour or so because i need to tie down rough ends at work. i decided after my short conversation with ms. tub-o-shitte this morning that it will be in my best interest to forgo my selfish need for some away time from everybody to come back and prove to company what a responsible rat i am. mr. lonely got the sack yesterday and called me to talk just now but his defense mechansim that he has built around himself is too thick to be penetrated by me. he didn't sound sad or remorseful, instead he sounded dejected but hopeful for a new future. funny but ms. finicky didn't mention his departure. no one did. maybe things will be different but the same. well, onward march to the office i go.......

spent v day trapped in my own delusions. *nuffsaid* maybe things will be different but the same :) no buttons pushed hard enough but i'm very aware of its repercussions. episodes of 'my name is earl' come to my mind. funny show that i don't watch enough. trail thoughts to amir...powwsters and those who matter....happy valentines day to ALL.....hope that we all can find the meanings we are looking for without having to lean on commercial reminders.

nyce....when we fuss we care. when we don't we are just in it for free lunch :D

"Birds flying high you know how i feel
Sun in the sky you know how i feel
Reeds driftin' on by you know how i feel

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And i'm feeling good

Fish in the sea you know how i feel
River running free you know how i feel
Blossom in the tree you know how i feel

Dragonfly out in the sun you know what i mean, don't you know
Butterflies all havin' fun you know what i mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That's what i mean

And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me

Stars when you shine you know how i feel
Scent of the pine you know how i feel
Oh freedom is mine
And i know how i feel"

go look for the song....nina simone :)

stay sane,
amyemeelea