Charity Rant…

bukan sharity elephant otey :p

I take offence relationships being likened to politics but I guess now is now not even going into forever. In any relationship and social setting; especially when you use the term ‘politics’ to describe your gang *wow!girlpoliticsbitchy~~* It means to me that all actions, practices and policies within that social group has long been establish. In affairs as such or business *especially*; competition between interest groups or individuals for power and leadership (in the government) IS RIFE! This political life subscribes to its own code of what is norm and its ethics can be described by its principal activities or profession. We like holidays, have been through very tough times, loves bitching and raving mad for laughs or could be just shoes hehe.

You will involve yourself with its opinions or sympathizes with a person and more often than not, you bring yourself to anguishing turmoil trying to make sense of the total complex of relations between people living in society (please ehk try to keep track, don’t lose your brain cells now?). You try to place yourself and find yourself in any particular area of experience especially as seen or dealt with from a political point of view. Is it office politics? Is it ethnic policies? Or maybe identity politics? :p orh!!!! Its girl politics dar dey!!!

I was asked or rather openly hinted about my involvement in girl politics. Labels I still collect and accusations and assumptions I still deal with. So today’s charity rant homes down to but what are my motives? Or simply the question implies to my emotion or desire operating on the will and causing me to act.

GAHH!!!

i.feel.my.forehead.throbbing.violently.as.the.label.AMY.PANDAI.sears.my.forehead *muahahaha* excuse me while I feeling harry potek.

Answer is :: Like begets like and love begets love and I believe the rest will just flow. May I quote biks here? “Because we exchange precious commodities we keep close to our selves, our trust, our hopes and of course our ideals.” I love being in communities and society in general. People are my passion and who am I if not a reflection of you? Hence yeay I am the friendly fucker who serves all and fuck all.

So today, it all lies in attitude. I am very much aware how some prefer to adopt reject all temptations or ‘hair of the dog” that do not sustain or respect your need for space, encouragement or your hearts desire. But I still catch no balls as to why those who are insecure are usually the ones to misinterpret things. Should it not be the other way round? And what punishment should be mete out to one that who has potty mouth? See! So many many points of contention to fiddle with enthusiastic glee. Or are confrontations necessarily good for all situations and then if so, who can be one who is an objectively fair judge? Fuck the norms but what are norms? Since you live by your own creed, must I too just so that I can partake in its all glory?

In recovery *kopekshell* Our mutual losses or experience deserve to be acknowledged or remembered with dignity, honor, and respect even as we regroup to move forward. Whosoever is willing to work on forgiveness and letting go of the past in order to find peace, I guess. For now, it's time to give it a rest. Let's just empower by stillness and this is when silence is virtue.

This I know of enlightened beings…they do not want to be known but their light penetrates through the blackness of the most hideous nights. Hence they will attract all manner of the lost. We are teacher and students all at once, are we not? But are they aware of their responsibilities? Its tedious journey? Can they stand to be weary? I am not sure when their belief and attitude is, “It’s been nice knowing and not knowing you”

Stay sane,
Amyemeelea

ps to self:: lost my claws or yet to be sharpened cispai!!!!!!