from the shadows of the den...

the self emerges but not after being blinded the the lightness of all beings :)

reminds me the story of the men in caves in Republic by Plato..as an allergory of many all of us live in caves of ignorance. if not total ignorance *sometimeunavaoidable* then in relative ignorance because that is all that we know. when people are faced with the truth, we first shirk away, hide and cower in fear back to the lives that we know but when you continue to face your shadows, it gets much easier easier to handle. you'd be craving for more in fact! so the people around you will find you wacky, crazy then maybe a danger to society but you don't care...as once you've tasted the truth, you won't ever want to go back to being ignorant.

for full story ----> http://http://webspace.ship.edu/cgboer/platoscave.html

dang! i wish i could do nicer links :p *BIKSSSSSSSS!~*

but then each our truth differs of course, by our many biasness and then influence of experience. i do not want to sound so bleak nor do i want to read despondent *lol* but then hey hey! i need to vent :p of tempers flaring and then some inevitable breakups. the espionage of darting around in after the shadows then running amok with wild accusations of hidden motives and intentions *sigh* so i note that librans prefer uncomplicated lives but yet they idolise thier inner divas. aquarians seek the stability of constant reassurances if not the heightened drama of thier own carved niche. stay away from hybrids! and never fall for a sagitarius if you do not want to get burned~! BAD!!!! taureans are generally weird cows that moo and then surprise you with milk that will tempting dark chocolatey noir with enough bite. nothing is original! play scarbulous and then kinda mix it all up and you'd get randomness..or some swear its creativity at its peak *coughcough* scorpios sting themselves but live long enough to tell the tale and then there are those the aries, fiery and raging under simmer of stoic calm. the leos stylish and proud to the hilt if not they slink back to empty dens to chew on bones of contentions. pieces of the other zodiac signs i have yet to make minute judgements but lets have it stay at that. orh and me? what about the capricious capricock whose dull at times tinged with melacholic despondence *hiccups*

am trying to steer clear of all things bad is one thing but to go loco and join a futsal team is another *hehe* He finally answered my prayers and i got to meet with mama baru \daSTEPMOM/ and can i mention the silly or rather obnoxious green eyed monster of my ex celebrated his 2nd year wedding anniversary when it was annouced he just got married early this month *gofigure* but all that i remember this week is that you lose much but pick up hidden treasure along the way.

the terrors likes the song below by Unggu \a indonesian band yeay~!/we actully youtubed for the song and liriks :D and terror 3 did a lil dance to it. of course they asked my why i cried afters but that is another entry altogther ;)

Andai Ku Tahu
Andai kutahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku
Andai kutahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan jangan Kau ambil nyawaku
Aku takut Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut Dosa yang terus membayangiku
*Instrumental*
Andai kutahu Malaikat
Mu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku Mengucap kata tobat padaMu
Aku takut Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut Dosa yang terus membayangiku
Ampuni aku Dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku Menangisku bertobat padaMu
Aku manusia
Yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga
Tak pantas di surga
Andai kutahu Kapan tiba ajalku
Izinkan akuMengucap kata tobat padaMu
Aku takut Akan semua dosa dosaku
Aku takut Dosa yang terus membayangiku
Ampuni aku Dari segala dosa dosaku
Ampuni aku Menangisku bertobat padaMu

toddles peoples *sobs* salam Nuzul Al'quran yang akan menjelangs *salams*

stay sane not angry angry depress mepress~,
jahatamyemeelea