the veil lifts..

hiya guys...its been quite sometime and whoa did i get a shock when i logged onto the net for a bit of catch up time!! before anything else, thank you for the calls and i am fine by the way. better than fine on some days then its straight down to melancholic melodrama on other days! :P

not that i am complaining. i am glad to be back to the showroom, somehow the stint at the exhibition kinda frooze me up. i am due back to the exhibition this weekend bah! And i mean the whole exhibition was just like a ghost town! the place was entirely filled up with interior firms and the only form of entertainment was exchanging brochures with each other and going for smokes. which is why unlike the last exhibition, i was literally freezing to death (and not to mention awfully bored wallowing in extreme boredom!!). luckily, pen and paper normally works wonders for really really really bored people like me and with all that time on my hand, the other day i actually contemplated life (no i wasn't trying to kill myself but i would have if say i was you hehe) and our purpose this life *toootbadtiming* and that episode resulted to a heated row with a friend. you know how it works, you think of something and you just had to impose your thoughts onto another (what cheek! what liberty!) but lemme tell you this joke first...

Do you know the joke about the English Lord?

An English Lord said to his lady after the morning after their wedding night, "I do hope you're pregnant, my dear. I shouldn't want to go through all those ridiculous motions again.

HAHAHAHAHA ..... ????????

Well, some of you might get it and some of you might not and my point is no one form of communication and interaction is perfect and many a times even with a healthy combo of ways to communicate, it fails to reach to the other positively....well then the least is 'smile'! maybe nothing another says to you makes sense or plainly rude or even downright offensive but a smile tells of tolerance, not joy or approbation (so safe wot). we will always have very different views, and whenever our differences is about to make themselves felt too openly, one of us should quickly smile that smile to the other just to make it clear their friendship was in no way endangered. sms oso can put smiley ok so kenot play cheat ah >) and whenever i'm talking about friendships please auto-ruleout the ship you have with your other half and apply this rule with caution. somehow many of us haven't perfected the art of having our other halves as our bestest of friends. i for one still have overwhelming bouts of "will he understand wot i'm saying/doing?" then decide not to tell him anything or just tell him bits of everything (to confuse? :P) then wham bam...its too late. we're only human and humans repeat vice and virtue, juggling between them till no border is visible and everytime something is repeated, it loses a part of its meaning. Or rather, it gradually loses its vital force, that vital force which automatically, inherently, presupposes meaning. we sought for perfection but we work towards its destruction :( so to me repetition is only a means of making the border visible. and i for one also firmly believes that the line of the border is covered with dust, and repetition is like the whisk of a hand removing the dust :)

*crickcrickcrick*

so i salute you (if any) for being able to overcome the abhored generalisation of repetition as mere imitation and that all imitation is worthless because it is not if you really do think about it. be it for yourself or another and especially for cylernkilla, a promise for never i did make and as did another promise to stay true (yet again) to our promises but know that your forgiveness awoke something in me and i thought that feeling has overdosed a long time ago due to the lack of understanding. so thank you everyone for making my another day as fruitful and satisfying as the last.

stay sane,
jahat