Nuff said..

Bimbang – Melly Goeslaw

"Pertama kali aku tergugah

Dalam setiap kata yang kau ucap

Bila malam tlah datang
Terkadang ingin ku tulis semua perasaan

Kata orang rindu itu indah

Namun bagiku ini menyiksa

Sejenak ku fikirkan untuk ku benci saja dirimu

Namun sulit ku membenci

Pejamkan mata bila kuingin bernafas lega

Dalam anganku aku berada disatu persimpangan jalan yang sulit kupilih
Ku peluk semua indah hidupku

Hikmah yang ku rasa sangat tulus

Ada dan tiada cinta bagiku tak mengapa namun ada yang hilang separuh

diriku"

I finally got round to register myself with you tube in my hunt for music and am reading neatorama for mental floss. I wanted to translate the above lyrics to english but it doesn’t have the same feel. I can get the humor of having it grossly multilated at babel but nah…the feel of loss of this magnitude does not deserve slapstick humor or cheapthrills of any kind. The words heavy burden is carried light by melly’s vocals as they skip and do pirouettes on the lazy acoustic jazzy feel that the song has. I feel like death in my deck of cards and listening to Melly with the image reminds me how important it is to try to look at Death "in context", taking everything that surrounds the change into account. A broader view can help us alter our perspective of something that at first seemed threatening.

The King of Death is smiling, “His stance is somewhat tentative, as if he might begin to dance at any moment. Death does not want to be feared, for he stands for transformation, re-birth and renewal and for the end that comes to all things." The card represents profound change — change that may be painful — the overriding message is one of liberation and release. Only by destroying old patterns can we reveal a new, more rewarding path. Of course transition can be hard to deal with, and many times we try to resist change, especially if it seems to us that we stand to lose from it rather than gain. However, in some cases, change is inevitable. It is merely a question of how we will react or respond, and that is up to us. "Death walks in a universal garden of vibrant, fiery flowers. Next to a life-giving stream under a sky whose stars are linked together, by their common fate." the deck's creators point out. "

My punishment and my imminent remorse is everytime I lost you. Unchain my fear of unfairness by telling me that the past of 3 will never repeat itself. Promise me equality and honesty that will forever bind me faithfully to you for eternity. Love's still reflections of you keeps anxiety fooled as I fervertly pray, "May each our loses liberate us. " - me my monologues

Stay sane,

amyemeelea